i didn’t go into this trying to make some huge statement. i just wanted to make something that felt alive to me again. something open, a little loose around the edges, and actually fun to keep coming back to.
most of the time i don’t write first. i record whatever comes out, follow the melody, mumble through lines, and let the feeling lead for a while. later, when i listen back properly, i usually understand the song better than i did while making it. that part still catches me off guard.
without really meaning to, a lot of these songs ended up circling romance. not the clean version of it either. more the mixed-up version. closeness, distance, tension, regret, wanting to stay, wanting to leave, and all the weird in-between parts that don’t tie themselves up neatly.
i think this project is also me being a little less hidden than before. not just a more serious version of ouisssss, just a more honest one. that can feel uncomfortable sometimes, but i’d rather leave that in than smooth everything over.
if any of this finds you at the right moment, that’s enough for me.
note to self: stop sanding everything down. the rough edges are part of it too.